Some thoughts i scribbled down one evening...

Unto the sky they made me see
Heaven, they said, is where u gotta be
What's this that drives me to be free?
Can't I just let me be?

You talk of a world -
Where u is u and me is me
Strikes a real sweet chord -
When u say everyone's unique; very like thee
(Maybe very [V] ;)

If only darkness were light
If only we could go down without a fight
If only those pants weren't that tight
Then... would there have been experiences to cite?

Life sometimes gets on too heavy
But till the end u go steady
18 from b'day to d'day
Must be quite a journey, if u don’t mind me say :)

Disillusionment...

Here I am at office... typing away... Have work, but procrastination has always been my pal. Slept thru the day today... woke up in the evening to realise that I didn't know what I had been doing these last few days and where I'm going in the few days to follow. These moments of utter helplessness do hit you sometimes. Today I tried to figure out what leads to these annoying moments of anxiety.

We all live our lives supporting ourselves on structures we build around ourselves. These structures take the shape of our own beliefs and ambitions, our friendships, our family, our work... etc etc... At any given time, we find support from one or more of these structures to give us the strength and the confidence to hold our ground or to take our next step. Its on rare occasions that all these support structures desert us leaving us with a sense of complete void. I think it was in one such void that I found myself trapped today evening.

There fortunately was an encore serving of Bheja Fry for dinner to get me out of my reverie. :-)